The Great Wall of Grace
I never imagined all that happened to you. I identify with your early Sabbath School experience. My youth leader who Jesus sent just for me was my first real Sabbath School teacher and mentor. I look back on those years fondly, even today. At that age, it had such an impact on my future life, as I see it did for you as well.
I still want to visit Dr. F______ again, but I haven’t had the opportunity. He lives 4 hours from where I worked and that’s a long drive Sabbath morning! I know because I visited him before emailing you that first time.
I never would have met you were it not for going to a campmeeting in 2005. There I met some beautiful SDAs and one was from F________, VA, where Dr. F______ lives and had been a member for so many years. He had been a pillar in the church and preached many, many Sabbaths, probably was the head elder/lay pastor all those years.
That person I met at the campmeeting told me the shocking news that Dr. F______ had left the church and asked if I could talk to him. This request came because we had listened to a wonderful meeting on Jesus and we were talking together about it in awe of the wonderful love of God. When she told me she was from F________, I asked about Dr. F______.
It saddens me that he left the church. But I feel the reason is because Jesus is not preached. As I continue to study the Bible and the Spirit of Prophecy, I keep running into a brick wall, high and thick. Its the wall of God’s grace. This wall lies directly between us in a world of sin and the heavenly land of promise that we all want so desperately.
We have ignored this obstacle and have all been trying to get to the promised experience of victory which is the prerequisite for the literal entrance into the promised land. And we have kept smashing into that wall, completely oblivious to it. It’s like we are blind to it. I don’t even think we know what grace is, not even our pastors. We aren’t alone. Even the Sunday pastors don’t know what it is either, even though they try to preach it.
Jesus said if we don’t fall on that wall, it would grind on us until we would go lunatic. That is what the third angel’s message is all about. Without Jesus’ grace, we can’t function. The smoke of our torment ascends up continually before the angels and the Lamb and we have no rest day nor night. This is what happened to Dr. F______. And it’s happening to the whole world who refuse to fall in repentance at Jesus’ feet. I believe this is also what the investigative judgment is all about. We pass or fail in that judgment based on whether or not we go to Jesus for repentance and forgiveness. “The God of our fathers raised up Jesus, whom ye slew and hanged on a tree. Him hath God exalted with His right hand to be a Prince and a Saviour, for to give repentance to Israel, and forgiveness of sins.”(Acts 5: 30,31).
The gospel call is more important today that ever. Christ’s current ministry in the Most Holy Place of God’s sanctuary in heaven means that the convicting power of the Holy Spirit will be especially strong in these last days and will result in a church that must become most holy, in preparation for the coming of the King of the universe in executive power.
On the other side of the coin, Satan’s hosts are loosed from perdition for an hour, and a day, and a month, and a year, like a cloud of locusts that darken the Sun of righteousness. (Rev. 9:1,15). A great delusion has gone forth like a plague, and to refuse repentance and reconciliation with heaven is to accept service to a very mean and satanic enemy of God.
We don’t know how far the satanic hosts will take us when we turn away from the precious light from God. The book about D.M. Canright I wrote you about really struck me concerning this. Like Ellen White forewarned him, his light surely went out in obscurity. There was only weeping and gnashing of teeth for him and utter hopelessness. I fear the same for Dr. F______.
“For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost, and have tasted the good word of God, and the powers of the world to come, if they shall fall away, to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame.” (Heb. 6:4-6). My only hope is that Dr. F_____ has really never tasted of God’s grace and the power of the world to come and turned it down.
Like Sr. White once wrote, “I question whether genuine rebellion is ever curable.” That is a solemn thought. Really heavy. Really final. “Wandering stars, to whom is reserved the blackness of darkness for ever.” (Jude 13).
But to close with a lighter note. “And when the Pharisees saw it, they said unto His disciples, Why eateth your Master with publicans and sinners? But when Jesus heard that, He said unto them, They that be whole need not a physician, but they that are sick. But go ye and learn what that meaneth, I will have mercy, and not sacrifice: for I am not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.” (Matt. 9:11-13).
I need a Physician, really bad. How about you, brother? His knife is sharp, and to save the life He must cut out the diseased parts, butHe will only give as much pain as is necessary and not a bit more. In fact, the razor sharpness of the scalpel helps lessen the pain. And looking to His mangled hands makes it much easier to accept the Doctor’s little affliction which is but for a moment.