“Oh, the unspeakable greatness of that exchange,—the Sinless One is condemned, and he who is guilty goes free; the Blessing bears the curse, and the cursed is brought into blessing; the Life dies, and the dead live; the Glory is whelmed in darkness, and he who knew nothing but confusion of face is clothed with glory.” Trailady

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Tuesday, January 30, 2018

A gentle and loving, albeit self-indulgent sinner meets a more gentle and loving, and altogether self-denying Saviour

“Because he hath set his love upon Me, therefore will I deliver him: I will set him on high because he hath known My name.” (Ps. 91:14)

“In the 4 years that I’ve been in this apartment, more has happened to me than has happened in my entire life.”

This is a very beautiful testimony that comes from Travis, who has always loved to love. I hear love coming out of everything he said, even before his dramatic conversion. But, his loving nature didn’t keep him from a life of self-indulgence and many close scrapes with death due to his self-indulgence. But, in the end, he found Jesus trustworthy, which saved his heart and justified him, and opened his heart to the gift of the Holy Spirit. And, because of the love he saw in Jesus and His Spirit (Rom. 8:9), Travis was able to accept the great foundation of sanctification—obedience to Jesus.

“This testimony kind of starts when I was 13 years old and I was in my bedroom. And I heard my dad, he was outside doing yard work, and he called me. His voice was like, ‘Get out here quick, there’s something out there that you’ve got to see.’ And so I ran out to the back yard, and my dad was looking at these three orange lights in the sky. And it looked like they were playing tag. They were chasing each other around really fast. It almost looked like how bees would be, how they can really fly around really fast. Of course, these were bigger than bees, and they were lights. And this was in early evening time. And they were chasing each other around. There’s three of them, and like two would be chasing one, the one was being chased and then there was another [that] would chase another one, and they would zip up into the sky and disappear. And then they would come back down. And they weren’t very far from us. I mean they were like 30 yards. And my dad had seen them when they flew over his head, so I didn’t see them when they flew over our head. Over his head I didn’t see them. He said that they looked metallic. And by the way, this isn’t about aliens; it’s about Jesus.

Anyway, so, I wasn’t raised religious at all. I did have close cousins. My dad would drop me off when he’d go to work with my cousins. And I had 4 cousins, and my aunt who would watch me. And one of my cousins was around my age, and so we became really good friends. And, I would have to…they were Catholic at the time. They have since switched to…I think they go to a non-denominational is what they do, except for my uncle. He did stay in the Catholic Church. So we would go to midnight Mass, and this. And I would always ask questions. I’m like, ‘What is this? You know, kids are supposed to be in bed at this time. Why are we out?’ I’ve always been very sensitive. And so I always question, and asked them, ‘Why is there altar boys?’ And there was one priest who would be in this room with the door open, and would be peaking and looking at me. I was probably, I don’t know, seven, six. And so I would ask my cousin. I would be like, ‘Why is he staring at me? What’s he doing?’ And so I named the guy, ‘Peek-a-boo Priest’. And so that was an inside joke we had for a long time, ‘Peek-a-boo Priest’.

But, that didn’t get me to want to go to church very much, I went to Sunday school. In fact, me and my step-mother got into a terrible crash… a car accident when I was six. And she was wearing a seatbelt and she actually went, her legs went into the van, and the glass went all over her. I was just sitting in the front seat with her with no seatbelt. And it was like somebody was holding me in there. And as soon as the crash was over she was just…it looked like Carrie, the movie Carrie, there was blood just coming down and she was screaming. She looked over at me because she probably thought I was dead. Not a scratch. And then my door opens and here’s this woman from Sunday school, who got me out of the van and put me in the back, she had a station wagon. She put me in the back of that. She kept telling me, ‘Get down, stay down.’ I wanted to see the van, and I did see it. It was terrible. It was demolished.

We saw these lights and stuff. And me and my dad, we didn’t really talk about it much. I didn’t think about it much. I put the experience into my pocket, saved it, thought about it every once in a while, ‘Wow, wasn’t that kind of strange?’ I had a lot of other experiences happen. I had a really close friend. He fell asleep at the wheel. He died real tragically. It’s a pretty grotesque story actually. And he was a Jehovah’s Witness. He was trying to tell me about, you know, their beliefs and all this stuff before he had passed. He got into Jehovah’s Witness the last three years of his life, or two. And I just though it was strange. I didn’t know what to think of religion. I always did, though, I prayed every night. And I think I prayed for my meals. And I did it in the typical Catholic, ‘Father, Son, and Holy Spirit’ thing. And it was a real quick prayer. It didn’t mean much. But I always just had this hunch, ‘I think Jesus is real.’ And I always had this feeling that everything I did I was being watched. Like I said I am very sensitive. And I can tell what people are…their emotions and stuff. I can feel them. So I always knew somebody was watching me—God, or whoever.

I always did respect Jesus. I didn’t know nothing about the Bible. Around the time that my friend passed away, I came to work one day. This is in 2001 and I came to work. I would go to a home where three developmentally disabled adults lived, and I would make their dinners, and stuff like that. And you know, watch them, help them. And I come to work one day before they would get dropped off by Good Will, where they worked and get dropped on the bus. And I would come early and get stuff going and ready for them. So I come to work, there’s this gift for me. I doesn’t say it’s from anybody, just, ‘To Travis.’ And I opened it up and it was a Bible. And it had my name inscribed on it right here [he points to its bottom right corner]. I just thought it was really cool. I really liked… Its actually an NIV. I’ll talk more about that.

I thought, ‘Wow. This is interesting.’ Because my friend had just passed away. And when we went to his funeral, his, I don’t know what they call Jehovah Witnesses’ preachers, I guess they are still called preachers, he said—my friend’s name was Jeremiah—he said, ‘Jeremiah is in darkness now’, because he had taken an anti-anxiety medication. We would drink a lot, and we would smoke pot, and he took that pill and that’s what happened to him. So in the religion of Jehovah’s Witnesses, I don’t know if it’s true, he was in, I don’t know, outer darkness, or in darkness, I don’t know. That’s what he said though. And I remember I had my cousin with me, and she was a Catholic. So it was another cousin, but she was in the same family I stayed with when I was younger. And it really threw her off. And I remember we went back to my house, and she just wouldn’t stop. She was like, it really affected her. It really bothered her. And she didn’t even know him. And I didn’t even know what to think.

But here I come to my job, and here is this book, this Bible. And so I’m going to read it. I’m going to give this a try. I’m 30, 28, 29, 30 [years old]. And so I begin at the very beginning, and read the entire Bible. And it was like reading Chinese. I, there might have been, I mean I’m sure, I remember when I would read it it would get me to think…I never really felt the Lord’s presence, or anything when I read it, which is…. I don’t understand that.

So anyway, during this time, in this house that I worked in I would get these weird feelings. And there was a lot of people that worked there, mostly females. And they were, they were different. And there was a lot going on there, with them, not me. You know, I could just feel a[n evil] presence in that place. And there was. One of the men that I took care of, he was just a happy-go-lucky guy. I worked there for 4 years—I knew these guys, this was 3 years into working there—I knew these guys. And this man—he’s no longer here anymore—he was just a happy guy. He came and sat on my lap. He loved to unload the dishwasher, and there was dishes that just got done. And he said, ‘Wanna go unload the dishwasher?!’ (His name was John). And I go, ‘Yeah John, let’s do that.’ We get up and we run. And we go into the kitchen. Just as we get in there, I’m opening up the dishwasher, and this voice comes out of John, and this isn’t John. And it shocked me. It really surprised me. And what he said was, I’ll try to imitate it the best I can. This is going to sound really ridiculous. I don’t care, though. He goes, ‘YOU’RE GOING TO HELL!’ Now take that times 100 million. No movie or Hollywood could, you know, no movie could come close to imitating this. This was not even human. And, so I go, ‘What did you say, John?’ [John said,] ‘John don’t know.’ I asked other people, ‘Does John ever, you know [talk like that]?’ [Each of the other workers would all say,] ‘No.’ ‘No.’ ‘No’, ‘No.’ ‘No.’ It wasn’t John, it was a demon that saw me coming to work an hour early every day, and sitting there and reading the Bible there. That’s what I was doing when I read the Bible, I would actually come to work an hour early and I would read that Bible. And I knew, I could just feel something was in there [in the house], more than once.

So I just let that go, no big deal. All right. I went on with my sinful life. I was living with this girl. I was actually divorced, divorced for a good reason. And here I am now living with this girl. And I didn’t know what was going on. I remember sometimes I’d wake up in the middle of the night and go…I would just wake up and go, ‘I’m going to cease to exist some day!’ And that would like…I would panic, as if that would really be terrible. You know, as if that would be worse than going to hell.

The first thing I ever heard about when it came to the Bible when I was little, was my aunt. Like I was telling you, I was there a lot with my cousins, the first introduction to scripture I ever had was her reading Revelations. That didn’t make me want to go to church. It really scared me away from it. I just thought if this is the way, you know… I always thought it was just religion. I considered Catholic doctrine, and all that religion, for certain [there is] worse than that even. But, I don’t judge anybody for that at all. I have an uncle [in the Catholic Church] and I love him so much. I mean, we talked about Jesus all the time.

So, anyway, I get into drinking and smoking pot. The relationship with that girl didn’t work. I had a failed marriage. Every relationship I ever had with a woman was just terrible. I wasn’t the best either. So, I would come home at night—I worked in the evening—and stare out into the darkness. I just mean staring out into the darkness, and just saying, ‘I’m missing out on something. I’m missing out on… What am I supposed to be doing? What am I here for? Why am I here?’ And I sunk into a deep, dark depression. I only drank once a week, on Saturday, on my day off. I would drink enough for that whole week on that one night. I would just drink a ton. I was really a big guy then. Like I worked out like ridiculous amount of hours, six days a week. (Real vain.) So I got into that [weight lifting?].

And it got worse. And I got into pills. And during this time I’m just starting to get into pills, and I’d been in some bands and stuff before this. I sang, I was a singer. I taught myself to play guitar. And I quit these bands because I got tired of dealing with the other band mates. And I began to have some experiences. Once I was sitting there, playing my guitar, and something tapped me on the back, you know. [Travis acts it out by immediately turning around] and there was nothing there. One time I’m sitting on my bed and I can feel something behind me. I know something is behind me and I turn around and I look. And the curtain raises up, not like one of these [venetian blinds]. But the curtain raised up and just held there. It was one of those drapes. And it raised all the way up and just held there. I’m like, [Travis gives a stare of surprise and disbelief]. I even called a friend, I’m like, ‘Man, there is, you know….’ And there was all kinds of stuff going on. I didn’t know what. I thought they were ghosts is what I thought. And so I was into ghosts now.

Around 2013 I started to get these strange, not audible or anything, just this feeling in me saying, ‘Go outside, go out in the front yard.’ And it would like 12 at night, 1 in the morning. ‘Go outside and look up into the sky and wait.’ And I’d go out looking up into the sky, wait… like, ‘What the heck am I waiting for!? Is this going to be another alien?’ So, nothing showed up. (Thank God). That’s nothing. Wait until you hear….

And so my drug use really took off. I was taking a prescription of Oxycodone. I was taking Methadone. I was taking anything, like any sort of opiate I could get my hands on and buy. I purchased it. That’s where almost all my money went to. I eventually had to move out of my apartment and move back in with my dad because of my drug habit. And I lied to him. Of course, I didn’t tell him. And it got really dark and bad. And then I stepped it up and became IV [intervenous] drug user. Then, of course, what comes after pills? Heroine. While all this is going on, I’m battling this addiction, I’m going from sick to OD to sick to OD. I OD’d a whole bunch of times. I mean a whole bunch of times. I don’t know how I made it. I mean I know now. It was Jesus, He allowed me to live.

I remember even before all of this, when I would drink hard alcohol and I’d get so drunk that if I had passed out, [and if] people who would try to move me or touch me or anything like that, I’d freak out on them. I mean, I would freak out. And there was a time once I ended up at some party and I was with my friends. I was really wild, and I would just ditch my friends and go find a party. You know, strangers, and go off with them. And end up at who knows where. And I was at this party and the next thing you know I had to go outside to throw up. And they put me in the back of a truck, and next thing you know I’m at a park. And it was snowing. And somebody called the police, and like I wouldn’t even let the police touch me.

But this was another time where I was living in this apartment, and I was really, really drunk off hard alcohol again, and the snow was up to my knees. And I figured, ‘I’m going to go on a snow walk!’ And this place where I went out to it’s a rock quarry. And there’s nothing out there. Nothing. There’s a road that leads out and you just go. There’s nobody out there. This was late, late at night. And I went out there. And I walked and I walked and I walked, until I was like, ‘Not going to make it home. Not going to make it home.’  So I turned around, I’m not even close to home. And I’m like, ‘Ok I’m probably going to fall right about over here. I’m going to fall in the snow, nobody is going to see me. This is where I’m going…, you know, to be found once the snow goes away. So I remember my last, or what I thought I was my last thing I’d see, and that was all white as I’d fall into the snow. This was Christmas Eve. I wake up Christmas morning in my apartment, on a couch. Family left, everybody is gone, doing Christmas. And I’m like, ‘No way. No.’ Because there’s no way I could have made it. I’m like, ‘Could somebody have found me or saw me? I’m going to go look.’ I run out there. I go out to the road where it is. And there is just one set of tracks going out there. Nothing coming back.

Stuff like that happened to me all the time. Everybody thought I was going to die all the time. My dad even said, you know, it was just a known thing that I was going to die soon and, you know, well before my dad. And, you know, that’s the way it is. And my dad sat around waiting for the call. And, by the way, this isn’t bragging at all. This is stupidity. I always had to learn the hard way.

And so, I’m into heroine. It got really dark. I OD’d a million times. Never went to the hospital once. And then I got into…I needed to quit heroine. And the people I would get heroine from they also did Meth. But I never did it because I just hated it. I couldn’t stand it. And so this woman one night, she goes, ‘I’m going to give you a $20 shot of Meth.’ I’m like, ‘All right.’ So I took this stupid Meth. And I got a lightbulb on my head thinking, ‘This is how I’m going to quite heroine.’ Good idea, huh? Yeah, really good idea. So I used that [Meth]. I succeeded. I got off heroine. Hmm, Good job [Travis]! [sarcasm] And now I got another problem. Oh, this time, oh man, that stuff turns you into a monster. And so I ended up homeless and crazy stuff was going on. And I’m not even talking about my teen life. My life was pretty nuts anyway. There’s a lot I’m skipping. I’m trying to get to what I’m trying to get to [the testimony for Jesus].

And so I’m homeless, I’m in and out of jail for stupid things like, No trespassing. One time I wanted a place to sleep. So I went into a store, grabbed a candy bar, went up to the counter and said, ‘I’m going to be stealing this, you can call the police on me.’ So, a cop walks in right as I do that, and I start going outside, and the cop walks in and they tell the cop. And he goes, he yells at me. He goes, ‘Put that candy bar back!’ So I go and put it back. He says, ‘I’m not going to arrest you....’ (I [Travis] live in a town where there is three cities.) He said, ‘I’m a cop from the other city.’ So, and then I remember I went up to the top of the train tracks and I was like this [Travis puts his face looking down glumly with cheeks on fists], and he [the policeman] was on a motorcycle and he just drives around, didn’t even look at me. And so I ended up selling my truck. I sold a lot of cars for drugs. And I end up getting [a] motel.

One of the places that I worked at there was a woman there that was a nurse, and we were good friends. We got along really, really, good. Nobody else seemed to really get along with her. She was really kind of grumpy to everybody. And I would just help her out. And I always, you know, we ate all the time together. There was nothing romantic, there was nothing anything like that. So I knew her life, and she had a daughter. And I knew all about it, what was going on. And her daughter was having problems with drugs. And she had cancer. And she was going through...she got done with Chemo, actually this is two testimonies. This is mine and hers. And I’m the only one who can tell hers.

And so I’m in contact with her. And I’ll be honest, this is so sad. I was in contact with her because I knew her daughter did drugs. And I thought, ‘OK. Well, I’ll just get her daughter to like me and get drugs.’ And so I ended up here one day. Yeah. I ended up here, that’s where I’m at right now. This was our apartment. This is where it all happened. And I love this place. This place, I’ll never forget this apartment. Anyway, and in the 4 years that I’ve been in this apartment, more has happened to me than has happened in my entire life. So I come over here and I see what’s going on. And I’m really appalled by it. And here I’m a drug addict. But, you know, her daughter, wasn’t helping her. Here she [his roommate] was, and I mean, she could barely lift a finger, and she had to go shopping and stuff. She had to do everything. And her daughter was just here with these people doing drugs. I’ve never really, and I’m not saying I’m better or good, I’m just really picky about who I hang out with. And I never seemed to really get along with other drug addicts, probably just because I didn’t want to share [my drugs]. But, all my friends were sober. So, you know, I was just sickened by what I saw when I got here.

But of course that didn’t stop me from pretty much using this situation to help my drug addiction. And so, yeah, I didn’t really get that much drugs from her because she didn’t have that much money. I mean, I was able to sell things I had and stuff, but she was out of control. Her daughter was out of control.

And so I was back and forth. Like I said I had a rented, at first I rented a motel that’s just down the street here. I was doing Meth. And that wasn’t working good for me… [End of first part of his testimony, and a gap in between first and second parts of his testimony]

…I asked her [the roommate’s daughter] for the machete. She left. Then she tried to get in and I wouldn’t let her in. By that time my friend [his roommate] showed up here, and I was still trying to get the machete. Eventually her daughter snuck up here and opened the door, unlocked the door with her keys and got in. And she was a very, I’m a pretty big guy, 6’5”, about 235 [pounds] and she’s bigger than me, taller too. And I didn’t know if she had the machete or what. But she got into the door. She hit me, about, I don’t know, like 13 times in the face. I was just caught off guard and I didn’t have any...I was, I kind of fell down, or something, when she came in. And she was punching me, and she couldn’t punch very hard. So, I’m glad for that. I finally got her down on the floor. She was screaming. I held her down. She was screaming, and kicking, and spitting. I held her for fifteen minutes. Got out of this apartment. There’s all these people out here and they’re yelling at me and telling me I shouldn’t beat up women, and stuff.

And so anyway she ended up going to jail. And a police officer that was here, he was the captain of the police department, he stayed here for 3 hours afterward, and talked about Jesus. I got really excited. And he told us about a church that is here in this town. It’s called, ‘Calvary’. And he anointed us, and stuff. After the police left, we found the church. And anyway, I ended up staying here. And her daughter was sending people over here to, I guess to kick my butt, or something. And so what I did was I chased all these people away because they basically wanted to kick me out of here and then continue using this as a place to do drugs.

And once in a while I’d let somebody in because I would want some drugs from them. Not many. And then I would like kick them out of here. And so anyway we stayed here. My room…now my friend is my roommate. And I’ll just refer to her as my roommate from here on. Like I said this is a double testimony. It’s hers too. So I’m staying here. I’m doing drugs. I found out she’s a real enabler and I used that for my advantage. I used to be real good at doing that. I used her and she…I loved her, I just had a drug problem, which is not an excuse. But I did that, she enabled me, she bought me drugs. And so, you know, I thought, ‘Well, this is great.’ I stayed here. She know, she wanted to go to church. She wanted to find Jesus. And I was kind of like, ‘Well, we’ll do that maybe tomorrow, or something.’

And so I started looking into stuff, and doing tons of research. I would do like 13 hours a day of researching stuff. Like I started out with kind of like 9/11 because I always wanted to look into that. And I really looked into that. And I looked into a whole bunch of stuff. And next thing you know I’m getting into New Age stuff.

Then I remembered the UFOs that me and my dad saw. And I thought, ‘That’s what I’m going to get into. That’s what I’m going to find out about. I want to know about what were those things that we saw. I wanted to know what that is.’ And I found a guy who is on YouTube, and he’s a pretty popular guy in the UFO and alien, I don’t know whatever you call it, the alien scene, I don’t know. And he teaches you how to summon aliens. And I just thought, ‘Huh’, you know. And I followed his instructions and I went out on the deck. And I did this, I did what he said to do, how to do it. And for two months every night I’d go out there, completely patient. Most people would get impatient, as I learned from friends that I told this about. I told them how to do it, and they’d go out. And after 2 days they’d be calling me all frustrated and stuff. So I would just tell them, ‘Well, come on over here.’ And they would see them [aliens] too. And my roommate saw many things. She was very skeptical. I wasn’t, I waited for 2 months and I just knew they were going to come. And they did. They showed up.

And it was exciting because I thought I was special. Later I was on YouTube looking. And there was a lot of people that were trying really hard to do that. And it seemed like they would give anything for that. And I just thought, ‘Wow. I’m really special.’ That’s not what it is. It’s pretty easy to do. I would never suggest anybody ever do that because there was some bad stuff that happened.

And so, yeah, they showed up. Well one of them showed up. You know there was a big story to that too. A lot of these experiences it just would take way too long to share them. But they did [they came]. There was different ships—‘ships’—and one of them was like a blue spear. And it seemed to have some attraction towards me. As far as, well it came around this tree out here [pointing outside the apartment], and it came over my head and just stayed there. And I was out front because I wanted to take a better look at these things. And what was one that came by, the first one, turned into like 5 of them out here. And they were all different and stuff. And this blue one was right over my head, so I came back in, then went back out on the deck, and it followed me over here. And these blue ones would follow me all the time. So I sat there and I watched this blue thing right over my head until the sun swallowed it up. And I came back in here. I got on YouTube and I found a guy who was describing exactly what I had just seen. And by the way, when these things showed up I did run in here—this was like 4 in the morning—I ran in here and grabbed my roommate. Because I didn’t want to be sitting here telling her this stuff and her going, ‘Yeah, right.’

So, once again, I found a guy on YouTube, and he was, I couldn’t believe it, ‘Wow. This guy is telling me what I just seen.’ So I commented on one of his videos telling him what had just happened. And he, right then, he replied to me. And he said, ‘Oh, that’s just the Arcturians and the Serians letting you know that they are real.’ And I’m like, ‘Oh, well which one’s which?’ And I said specifically, ‘Which one is the blue one?’ And he goes, ‘That’s the Arcturians.’ My roommate had showed up not too long after that with a big box full of tons of books—New Age, and all sorts of stuff, meditation, astral projection, and stuff like this. And one of them was a book called, ‘We the Arcturians.’ And I read that book. And that’s when I, from reading that book...pretty much the message was that—there’s a lot of people that think this too. By the way I still have friends that are still involved in this and they think this stuff too. And they are normal people. They hold normal jobs. I know I probably don’t seem like I’m very normal, I don’t know. But, I think I am [normal]. And they think that these aliens seeded with man or something, or planted us. That’s...the teachings pretty much is that. That’s what they teach. They teach that we came from them. This is a real old teaching. This isn’t new. They say ‘New Age’, but New Age really isn’t new. They’ve been doing this…You know the Egyptians, they said that gods came down—they called them gods in fire ships, and stuff. Now these are the same things that I seen. Same thing. Same teaching. Same everything. This has been around for ever. This isn’t new stuff. And it’s not Star Wars. This is real. It’s just a [deception] of what it really is. And that’s why I’m really doing this [testimony] too. It’s because it just needs to be talked about more. I haven’t seen anything yet that’s gotten this deep into a testimony for Jesus that’s quite this [detailed?], that would categorize as a [detailed account of] contact like this with these [aliens-demons].

So anyway, so every night I’m going outside, and I mean, it’s becoming…. there was more and more stuff going. There’s so much going on. At the time I was sober. I was going to an out-patient treatment. And I was going to these groups every week. And my counselors were just, they were saying stuff like, ‘You’re, you are really doing well. We’re amazed with your progress.’ And I really thought like, you know, because they [the New Age teachers] teach you all this stuff—raise your vibrations, and become an ascended master, and they teach you that we’re all gods, and that we need to ascend from being a human to like a god. And that if you don’t, [then] you have to come back and do it over again and be a human being. And I remember thinking, ‘No way am I ever, am I going to come back here and be a human being! Ever…no way!’ So it was really important to me to ascend. It was, you know, there’s people on YouTube and they call it their third eye, and all this stuff. It’s not your third eye. It’s just I allowed, I asked them [the demons] to come into my life. So, I allowed spiritual beings to basically bring me into their world. And then I was able to see spiritual things. And they’re the ones that did that. They unlocked that because I allowed it. And anyone can do it. There’s people that were on YouTube begging for that kind of stuff. ‘Oh I need my third eye opened. I’d give anything…’ No you wouldn’t. You wouldn’t want it.

I mean I’ve seen some stuff that nobody...most people don’t believe it, that it’s true. And they’ll always attribute it back to like drugs or something like that. ‘You fried your brain, dude.’ Well when I was in this treatment, this out-patient, they found me perfectly mentally stable. And one of the ways that they did this was, I kind of slipped up in the meeting and I told them, ‘I’ve got some really interesting things going on.’ Once a month you’d see a counselor and you’d sit on one-on-one with them. And as soon as I got to my counselor once, he didn’t even say, ‘How’s your day? How are you doing?’ He just said, “All right. Let’s hear about this. What’s going on with you?’ And I told him. And he said, ‘OK. We’re going to set you up for mental evaluation.’ And the reason why is I was astral projecting and I was meditating, and going into different dimensions—it’s a demonic dimension. I didn’t know—having all kinds of experiences, the astral projecting. I’ll just give you one little detail about that. Once I, you think you’re leaving your body and all this stuff. And I went out into space, and I went out there and there was a whole orchestra of instruments. Nobody playing them, just the instruments. And I, with my mind, controlled this orchestra and made this song with my mind. It was really, I’ll admit, it was amazing. And you could tell it was my first time doing it because every once in a while the music would stop. It was this song like I’ve never heard. And I was creating it—or so I thought. It felt like it.

Stuff like that was going on. I was meditating, and I mean, I didn’t even have to do it [meditate]. They say you’ve got to lose your mind. Don’t think of anything and its going to take a while. No, as soon as I close my eyes I’d be face to face with another being. One time—this one’s crazy. One time I closed my eyes. And I am face to face with the most beautiful, female…lizard? (Travis laughs). Yeah. And it was the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen in my life. And it was a freakin’ lizard woman, though. I mean, I don’t like lizards. I don’t think lizards look good. I’m not attracted to lizards. But this one was beautiful. And she winked at me, and she was sparkling. But she was like blue. And she was talking to me telepathically, telling me that she was an Arcturian and that so was I, and stuff. And so I really bought into this whole thing that I was an Arcturian. And I was continuing going out every night, and having some crazy, crazy things happening. I’ll share just a few of the things, just a few, because they get so crazy that probably some of your guys who have some of the craziest stories would probably think, ‘It’s crazy’.

Let’s see. OK. Gee, which one do I want to talk about? I don’t even like talking about it. But, which one? I’ll talk about a couple of bad things. I’d be outside and all of a sudden, man, BOOM! this huge ship would be there. And what they called them was, they called them ‘Light ships’ because they were pretty much just these lights. There was other ones too. There was tons of them. And, anyway. I would get this sensation. And I mean it felt real. I would swear it really was happening, that they were sucking my soul out of my body. And mind you, I’m sober this whole time. I’m completely sober. And it was easy to put…it would seem like I’m fighting [to get my soul back], but I could put my soul back into my body. And when that would happen, I would just come running, I mean I’d come running in here [the apartment].

Another time I was sitting on the couch over here. And somehow they had a way, because I allowed them. When you allow them like this, you have a connection with them. You can tell when they’re around, even when they are outside. One time I was just sitting there, and I could tell one was coming up, like behind me, but, you know, outside. And it came over my head and it [electrically?] shocked me. Now a lot of people talk about being shocked like this from demons, and from these so called aliens. It shocked me and then, right after that, something else was following it afterwards. And not only was it…it [the next alien] shocked me and then I had all this fear, panic, and then one went by and took all that away. And so I was like, ‘What the ___ [expletive]?’ And so I went outside, I looked up and it was dark out. But I could see these, they looked like chem-trails, two of them, totally bizarre. And so I’m seeing all kinds of stuff, man. Ships of all kinds all the sudden… I don’t want to go into that part….

Anyway, one time I seen, like, I don’t know if it was the magnetic… Ok, the atmosphere is, there’s substance there. You know, you learn about this in science, I think. That air in the atmosphere has a substance to it. It’s like a magnetic pull or it’s, I don’t know. But I seen it. It looked like a river. It looked like diagonal, all these like lines going up. I was just like, ‘Whoa!’ you know. And I seen a bunch of other things, a bunch, a bunch, a bunch of stuff. You know, a lot of times like I would call my roommate, and she would see it too. We’d go on walks and see them. They would come right over my head. Really got her scared, which I feel bad about now. And you know, one time we went out to go for a walk, and I could set my intentions for where I wanted them to show up, and they would. We’d get out to this main road over here, and we’d take a right, and I just knew something was going to be coming from the east. And all the sudden, and she saw it, like I saw it, but she saw it first, and this huge light, I mean huge up in the sky, coming right at us. She goes, ‘What the ___ is that?’, she goes. Actually she said, ‘What the ___?’ And this thing came down and I mean it was huge. No sound. OK, so I also told these things…I was so elated with the fact that they showed up, and they’re giving me all of this attention, that I told them…I said, ‘You can come in the house.’ And so things started happening in here. I remember the first time my roommate, and mind you, believe me when I say this, she had never seen anything like this. She was skeptical, very. Well one time she’s like, ‘What are these things chasing the cats?’ And I had already seen them, and stuff. In fact I even told her. I was like, ‘You know, they are in the house.’ You know, because I would see them in all sorts of different forms. I go, ‘Oh, don’t worry. It’s just the Arcturians, there. You know they’re my family. It’s OK. And so anyway, I’m playing around with these things and just having whatever, fun I guess. It just gets crazier, and crazier, and crazier. There’s a…they looked holographic, hieroglyphs, like what’s on the pyramid, floating around the house. All kinds of…it was…I really made a mess. And I really thought it was spirit demons. Some crazy stuff happened. Let’s just say that so we can get past this part.

In the meantime, all of a sudden, my mom passed away. And then my cat, I ended up having to put my 3 year old cat to sleep, which is another story in its own. And then, you know, I was trying to tell my dad this stuff because we had seen those lights. And I could tell he was like, ‘Oh man, my son he’s lost it. The drugs really got to him.’ And then he passed away. So it’s like everyone is passing away. My dad passed away like 3 months [or] 4 months after my mom. And then in between that, I had to put my cat to sleep for a unknown disease it had or something.

And then I got back on drugs after my dad passed away. We were really close. Somebody just showed up. I was really trying to stay away from that person. And it ended up they were here, and it, it was just weird stuff happened because I was really trying to get away from this guy. And he was even with somebody who wouldn’t allow that to happen. And all the sudden they go, ‘I think I’m going to go down and check on the dogs out in the car.’ And I’m like, ‘What? [puzzled]’ And they leave, and then my friend gives me heroine. Friend? Yeah. So I’m back on these drugs, right? And as soon as I take the drugs these things are out here, man. Like…I remember it scared me. This scared me, and there was others things that scared me, too. I just can’t talk about all of it. Because it would take forever. They really did look like demons this time. I mean, why didn’t I think of it? Why didn’t I go, ‘This isn’t good. They shocked me, they felt like they take my soul.’ One night I went outside—and about 4 in the morning—and this metal ball was coming down. This metal freakin’ ball, man. And a lot of times I’d go out there and some of them, their intentions on me were so strong I’d come running in the house. And this metal ball is coming down at me, and I was like thinking, ‘Don’t come any closer! Don’t come any …!’ And it backed off. I mean it could feel me. It could feel what I was going through. I would wake up in the middle of the night, with a buzz going on, like ‘Bzzzzzzz’, and like shaking. I’d go to the window, the sliding glass window and I’d see these crazy ships. Nothing else is buzzing and shaking. Just these ships buzzing and shaking with me. I’d look at anything else, and nothing else is doing that. So it was like they had me in tuned with them. But they would also like telepathically tell me things, like, ‘This is the people from Lyrica.’ They were like lion people, and stuff. It was just…I don’t know, this is crazy.

So, this is not fun. Ok. So then, we get into…so I got back into drugs. And they disappeared. They left. Now the [New Age] teaching is that you have to have a pure mind, and all this. You can’t be doing drugs. You can’t…you can’t really…it’s almost like obedience to Jesus, what you got to do, which I know that sounds crazy. But, I wasn’t doing anything before I relapsed. I was totally clean. I loved everybody, loved animals. I wasn’t doing any sinning at all. I wasn’t cussing. I mean I wasn’t doing nothing. Nothing sexual, nothing at all. And then, soon as I did the drugs they disappeared. Well they showed up in here and they looked like demons. And then they just disappeared. And I was sad, and I was like, ‘Oh, no!’ You know. ‘I screwed up!’

I had gotten a part of my inheritance. And it was kind of a lot of money. And so I went hog wild, and I bought a bunch of drugs. And I bought a truck and just stupid things. And ps-4, and stupid ___ [inhibited expletive?]. And I bought a ton of drugs. And I sat here and did so much drugs that one day I laid down to take a nap. And I woke up with like alarms going off , ‘You’ve got to go to the treatment now! You’ve got to go to detox right now!’ And I was on so much drugs and I was on so much heroine, and I was on so much anti-anxiety medication, that [to be detoxed] I had to go somewhere they don’t take insurance. They only take cash. And it’s really expensive. I mean I had to pay $12 grand [$12,000] for them to basically make sure I am alive for 8 days. And then I went to treatment. I didn’t send myself in there. That wasn’t me. That was God saying…that was God. And you know, I look back at that now and know that it was because, you know, once you get to know Jesus and stuff, you know how He is, and how He warns you and tells you things. And that was totally Jesus right there. And so Jesus got me into detox. And when I got there they found out, ‘You’re dying. Your body is shutting down.’ They almost had to put me into the hospital. I was so lucky to get out of that. But I was sick because I was coming off Suboxone, which it lasts a long time to get off. The withdrawals are terrible. So are the anti-anxiety [pills], but more so because [they were taken with] drugs, and that’s another whole story really, so I probably won’t get into that. So I end up going to treatment and when I was there I couldn’t stop thinking about my roommate. And something was telling me, ‘She’s going to die. She’s going to die.’ And so really I couldn’t concentrate. I couldn’t concentrate on the treatment. And plus, treatment doesn’t work. I don’t mean to say it, like I’m not saying, ‘Don’t go to treatment’, if you need to go to treatment. But faith-based is the best way. I didn’t know that at the time. So, anyway I go to treatment, and all I can think about is my roommate and I got to get back. So I pulled myself out of treatment and came back, worrying about her. So she seemed fine and OK. And like I got here and I tried to be sober, and it didn’t work. And I got back on drugs. And she didn’t know. She didn’t know.

Ok. Now it’s going to get real controversial here. And I don’t even care if anyone even watches this thing, which I don’t know [if anyone will]. And if there’s comments, ‘No. No, this can’t happen!’ I don’t care. Go ahead, say what you want to say. I mean everybody has a different path. And you know, you can’t put God in a box. Not everything is in the word [of God]. Not everything is in the Bible. Not everything. I believe the Bible 100%. And I’ll tell you why. But first, so I was back here and I remember it was the worst winter I had in my entire life. And I remember I wanted to get back, I called it ‘back to my spiritual[ity]’. I forgot what I called it. I just called it ‘my spiritual’, but I wanted it back really bad. I remember when I was in that treatment. I was sitting up in the room because I didn’t like being around all those people [addicts who were going through detox]. And the roommate that I had [at the detox center], he comes up and says, ‘We just watched a movie.’ And like I told him about all this stuff. And I go, ‘Really? What was it about?’ And he goes, ‘It was about aliens.’ And I tell him, ‘What? Why didn’t you tell me?’ And I go, ‘What was it about about aliens?’ He goes, ‘That they are demons.’ I go, ‘Shut up!’ You know, I was like ready to kick his butt. Because I hated when people said that. It really made me angry. And that’s a testimony to how much I thought that they were my family. And how much I loved them. I would defend them. And you know, it [aliens] did change my life. And I thought there was purpose now in my life. But it wasn’t enough. I was still doing drugs. It wasn’t enough obviously. And I really never got a love feeling from these things.

So, anyway, I’m back here. Back into drugs. And now we fast forward it a little bit. I feel like I’m dying. I feel like I’m going to die from the drug use. And I probably was. And so I was just like, ‘Oh well. I’m going to be with my Arcturians.’ But there was a sadness to it. Oh, I forgot one very important thing, very important. When I was going out there and having my encounters with the ships, (they were in the house, I mean I just I don’t know why I liked to go out there and have…there was a lot going on out there. But there was a lot going on in here too. I was out there one day. This one gives me, some of these stories give me chills. And I’m getting them [chills] right now. I’m sitting out there, waiting on my ships, and all the sudden, (Ooh, I’m getting goose bumps) all the sudden there’s a voice coming on my right side, my right ear, and it’s audible out loud, I mean its just like you hear my voice now, it’s out loud, audible. And from the first crack of the…it only said two words. And before it even said the words, in my mind I go, ‘Jesus?’ And I say it again. I said, ‘Jesus?’ And it was Jesus. I mean, they say to question the spirits. This was Jesus. Anyway…but, you know, I didn’t question the spirit. But it was so powerful. I mean, I dealt with these devils and demons and Satan. And this was different. I mean this was…you know when you have a God encounter it’s so powerful. And He allowed me to know it was Him. And He said. I mean I can’t say it like He did, He had just a beautiful, beautiful voice. And the best I can do is, He said like this, it was very gentle. But, I’ll tell you what else it was. He goes, ‘I’m coming.’ Wait. It’s like [quieter], ‘I’m coming’. Like that. And when He said that, I could feel 5 layers of sorrow. I felt some sorrow. It was intense sorrow. It was so intense, I’ve never felt sorrow like that, but yet it wasn’t all of His sorrow. And I knew that. But I could feel like 5 layers of it, like it was sorrow for me, sorrow for the lost, sorrow for the world. It was indescribably. And it was just in a split second. And I just remember going, ‘Jesus?’ That was Jesus, you know. When I go out there, and I don’t go out on my deck to look for ships. I don’t do that any more. When I go out there, I get goose bumps when I think about that [Jesus speaking to him].

But, and then I…after that happened, [when] I was like, ‘Is that [You] Jes…?’ I wasn’t like, ‘Is that…[Jesus]?’ [Then I could have continued talking with Jesus so that my thoughts might been that] I was like, ‘That was Jesus’. And [but], then [instead I said], ‘OK. Where’s my ships?’ Hmm? [Travis laments discontinuing his communion with Jesus. It was him like saying, “What? What was I thinking? How could Arcturians compare with Jesus and His multiple layers of sorrow?”] I told my roommate the next day, ‘Jesus talked to me’. But I didn’t really…I can’t believe that I didn’t… And another thing, when I was in the New Age and I was learning all of this stuff, they do talk about Jesus. They do bring Jesus up. And this is what they say, and I remember the day like it was yesterday. They say, you know, ‘Jesus is just another master, you know, like Buddha or like, I don’t know. Who else is there? There’s tons of them. I don’t care about them. And I remember I even said this out loud. I go…I go, ‘No. I am going to choose to think that Jesus is more than just some ascended master thing.’ And I said that, and I believe that, and I think that a lot of that had to do with what happens coming up.

I do also remember this. One day it just hit me, and I was like, ‘Jesus…’ And I asked Jesus...I go, ‘Jesus, if there really is a hell, can You please let me know?’ Even though I had a demon experience, duh [I should have known there is a hell]. ‘If there really is a hell, can You let me know? And if there is I will really try to look into following You. And I’ll try to do that.’ And then He said, ‘I’m coming.’ And that wasn’t enough either. It was like [Travis looks back on his lack of faith and says to himself], ‘Hello dummy.’

So now, I had the worst winter in my life. Now comes into spring, and all the sudden my roommate, who had already had cancer once, goes in to the doctor and gets diagnosed with cancer again. And, you know, she came home, and it was kind of like real non-chalant. Like, ‘Oh, I’ve got cancer again. The cancer came back.’ And she just looked and seemed so healthy. I had done tons of research from the first time she had cancer. That doesn’t matter. You can do research. You know, there’s cures and stuff like that. But then sometimes there’s not. Anyway, I think I’m going to save her or something, and I start doing all of this research. And then one day, probably a month after she said that that she got diagnosed with cancer…[that] her cancer came back, [after] learning that radiation makes it come back with a vengeance, [and] she hadn’t started any Chemo or anything like this, she comes out here. I’ve stayed in the living room, this is a two bedroom [apartment]. Her daughter was locked up for six months and then she went to an Oxford House and stuff. So she never came back here. But they [the daughter’s drug friends?] did, you know, they still hung out, they all hung out actually, after a while…. So…. [Travis realizes the testimony is rambling] Gosh, this is really long. I’m sorry. I haven’t even gotten to the good part.

So she [his roommate] comes out here. And she was just sheet white. Like I said, with this apartment, I’ve always slept out here in the living room on a…, at first it was a real terrible couch, now I’ve got a really, really, nice big comfortable one. I just like…there’s a bed here, but I sleep on this couch, out here still. She’s passed away over a year ago. So she comes out, and she is just sheet, sheet white. That’s when [her cancer] really hit me. Like, ‘Oh man.’ You know?  It was devastating. I mean I loved her like she was my mom. You know I had lost my mom, my dad, and now I’m looking at her and I’m going, ‘Dude, now I’m going to lose you now, huh?’ And it was like all the weight in the world was on me. I felt like I had to find a treatment for her.

So, when that happened, a family member of hers just showed up out of the blue. And I seen her like that and [she] said, ‘Where is your key? I’m going to get a copy.’ Well, my roommate had told me a lot of stories about this woman. And when my roommate’s mother died, this family member of my roommate’s who came and got the key, cleaned her [his roommate’s mother] out for everything she had. And she leaves to make a spare, made another key made, and I go, ‘You’re sure you want [to let her open access to the apartment?], you know…’ and she even didn’t feel good about it at all at first. So anyway, I’ve got all this weight on my shoulders of I’ve got to find an alternative for my roommate, you know, to get through this cancer. By then they said, ‘It’s in her bones. It’s in her brain. It’s just everywhere.’ I really didn’t understand. One of her family members had to come to me and say, ‘She’s not going to make it’, you know, ‘She can’t make it.’ And so I tried to tell my roommate. And I said, ‘Well then look, let’s just skip the Chemo because that’s just going to wipe you out. That’s just going to take you out sooner. There’s just no reason…’ She was declining so fast. And, OK so here is where it’s going to get controversial. Like it hasn’t been already.

OK, here is where people are going to say, ‘No. No. No. No. No.’ But I’m just going to stand up right now and I’m going to say something that a lot of people don’t agree with. And I’ve seen a couple [of]…not very many, two, who would agree with me because they experienced this. And that is this: you really can’t put a…you really shouldn’t, I know in scripture it says, you know, I don’t really know [where the verse is]. OK, we’re dealing with the Holy Spirit here. And of course when you’re dealing with the Holy Spirit you have to be very careful. And I always try to be. You don’t want to say something that’s not truth of the Holy Spirit. But I’m going to say this. This is what happened to me. So one night, all this is going on with my roommate. I lay down to go to sleep. I’m a drug addict. I’m a sinner. I did ask Jesus if, you know, if He can tell me if hell is real, then I would look into Jesus. I was very scared of hell. But I was also arguing with other family members who have been in the faith for 30+ years, and we were arguing, and my argument is that there is no hell. There is no hell. I absolutely would not believe there is a hell.

So, anyway, I go to sleep one night, and I wake up. This, this is one of most important moments of my entire life. I go to sleep. I wake up in the morning. Usually it takes me a long time to wake up in the morning. Plus I was a drug addict. Had to take my drugs, you know, [or] I’m [usually] not awake. No, this morning when I woke up I was wide awake. And I got up. And I sat straight up out of bed and I grabbed my heart. I could just feel…there is something going on here. And I said it out loud twice. I said, ‘I am not content with my beliefs. I am not content with my beliefs.’ And the next thing you know there’s something talking to me from my heart. It wasn’t audible. It was telepathic like. But I could hear the words. And I didn’t know at the time that it was the Holy Spirit. And the Holy Spirit said these exact words. It was almost like It…like He pointed to where He wanted me to look in the first. But, I…there…He wasn’t pointing. He was in my heart.. But, [He] directed my attention out to the deck, and said this, and said, ‘Those things you been messing with out there are demons.’ And then it directed me to like right here in the center of the room like, or something. Because I turned, It said, He said, ‘Hell is real.’ And then this here is kind of a cool thing. That Bible that I had, I think I showed it (I got a Bible for mark[ing]…yeah, I showed it). Then it turned my attention over here, to there’s a table, well actually it was this chair here. And I used to keep my…well my Bible was in the bathroom. But, all of a sudden, it’s on this chair. And then it said, ‘Everything in that Bible is 100% true.’ As the Holy Spirit told me this stuff there was no…when the Holy Spirit said these things to me, there was no argument. It was as if as soon as the Holy Spirit said these things, I instantly didn’t just believe, but I knew that I knew that I knew. And I think about that [experience with the Holy Spirit] every single day of my life. And I love that [experience with the Holy Spirit] every single day of my life.

And then…, this is crazy here. After the Holy Spirit said that to me, there was this feeling in my gut. Now a lot of people say that’s where the soul is. Well that’s where I felt this next presence. And this wasn’t the Holy Spirit. The only, I mean. This is, OK. It was like a remnant of God. It was like a remnant of God. And it just started rumbling inside of me down here. And it started yelling at me. And it said this...OK, my roommate’s room is right over here [pointing to his right]. And it directed me to the wall, which on the other side of this wall is my roommate. NOW GO IN THERE AND TALK TO HER ABOUT JESUS. NOW! Over and over and over, yelling at me like that. And if you can, and, all I…. It’s like, I knew what it was. I didn’t know it was in my heart. I didn’t know that was the Holy Spirit. This is going to get real weird. I just…it felt like a piece of God, like God just threw a little piece of Himself in me, like a, kind of like a wrath. Kind of like a really mad father. And I remember saying to that, ‘You know, hold on. I will.’ I can’t even believe I said that. And of course, I was going to. I was going to anyway, but…and I have to say—and by the way, it was in me for two weeks yelling at me while I was going in there and then talking to her about Jesus. But, like I was so, it was so urgent, and you’ll find out why it was so urgent. This is insane. But it’s beautiful. So of course I went in there and talked to her about Jesus. And at this time also, in my heart there was a bubbling, like, not real ones, but I would swear. I mean I’d even look down to look and expect to see bubbles coming out of my heart.

That went on for two months, the bubbling. And so I called my cousin, who I was really close with him. He was around my age. He was one that I was arguing with about hell. And I mean, they never thought that I would be a believer or anything. And I called him, and he came right over. I mean he was coming here every single day. And [I] kept telling him, ‘It’s like truth. It’s like this truth. And it’s bubbling.’ Well, he wouldn’t say any[thing]. I’m like asking him, ‘What is this?’ you know, ‘Help me out here.’ ‘I don’t know, Trav.’ And the reason he said that, its very controversial. It’s because a lot of believers don’t think…, ‘No. You couldn’t have gotten the Holy Spirit. You couldn’t have.’ And that did become a problem, which I will go into. So I was calling priests, and my family who were believers, over here to anoint here, to talk to her, and everything else. I thought I was going to have to find someone to do it because I didn’t think that God gave me the authority. He actually, He actually wanted me to do it. Which I understand, but I wasn’t getting through to her at all. You know, I was the alien guy, and now [a] Jesus freak. But you know everything like I told her about the aliens and stuff, she saw. She didn’t go through close to [as many of] the experiences that I did. But, she couldn’t deny it. And neither could friends that I’d have come over. And then they’d go home, and then they’d have aliens, which I, in the end of that, I feel terrible about that. Thank God they got out of it, and they are actually Christians.

Anyway, after…and I’m doing that with my roommate, and right away, day one, I’m calling my friends and family. And I’m just saying, ‘I just want you to know that I’ve asked Jesus to be my Lord and Saviour. So I’m doing everything I can to get my roommate saved, I guess. Well, God’s doing it, I’m not doing anything. He wanted her, and He was going to get her.

There was a continual yell going on for two weeks straight, ‘GET IN THERE AND TALK TO HER ABOUT JESUS. NOW! That’s like the nice version. It was, it was really authoritive [authoritative]. I mean it was really a lot like what people say who had experiences with God in a way of where He is very authoritive. I actually really loved it. I loved it. I could have lived with it. I mean, nobody likes to get yelled at. But for some reason, I just I got used to it real quick. And I loved it, and it was almost like kind of getting to know God. It was really, I’ve never had an experience like that. And I really just innocently fell in love with God from Him yelling at me. Plus, His interest in my friend, my roommate, was my interest. And I wanted her to be saved, just as bad as He did. It really was my number one priority. I was giving her an alternative medication. And with all the [other] medication she was on I had to really research to what I could give her that wouldn’t affect the other medications that she was on. Like, you know, side effects. I didn’t...we didn’t want any side effects. We didn’t want anything to contrast with the medication that she was on. And I did know a bit about medicine. I was a med tech and stuff for a long time. So that helped.

But, like I said, I had a bunch of people coming in here, trying to talk to her about Jesus. And, you know, after the Holy Spirit came into my heart, and it was there so strongly, Holy Spirit taught me a lot. And like I didn’t know much at all about the Bible. And the Holy Spirit just like instan…like I don’t know when it happened, if I was asleep when I happened. But Holy Spirit, it was like a puzzle coming together for me. Now I don’t claim to know all scripture or anything like that. I don’t because I’ve only been a believer now for just ov…a little over a year. But, I mean, it was like a crash course. And I understood things in the Bible that I had no idea…I didn’t even know what the Holy Spirit was. In fact I still didn’t know that I had the Holy Spirit. I didn’t know, but I was asking questions. But I was mostly yap, yap, yap. I just couldn’t stop talking about God. I couldn’t stop talking about Jesus.

And I was also being warned…this was all going on the same time I’m trying to have, you know, I’m helping God with my roommate. And I’m also being warned that some sort of destruction is going to happen on the earth. And it was scary. It was like, I was like chicken little running around, ‘The sky is falling the sky is falling.’ And I was telling this to everybody. I was telling this to my family that had been believers for a long time. And they thought I was nuts—some of them. I mean they were really glad, they were really happy, you know.

I was also going through a lot of turmoil. I was still on drugs. I was still using drugs. You know, that day the Holy Spirit came into my heart and told me, ‘Those things you’re messing with are demons. Hell is real. And the Bible is all truth.’ And then I’ll never forget this. This is so sick. I look down at my drugs right after that and I said, (because I knew), ‘That means I’m going to have to quit drugs, huh.’ Holy Spirit was really awesome. Because It said those things, those three things and It had already instilled all this stuff in me. Like the Bible, repentance. I didn’t know a thing about repentance. I didn’t even think I really knew what repentance…I’d had no idea about [what] repentance really was. I don’t even think I knew what the word was. And so I just knew. And I knew it was something I had to do. Holy Spirit was so—I’m trying think of the word, not lenient. Understanding and patient with me. I mean extremely. You don’t hear this very often. I know people don’t hear this very often of, ‘Yeah, the Holy Spirit…’ And it was also telling me stuff like, ‘There are things in this house that you need to get rid of.’ I was an owl collector. Like I collected owls and stuff. It took me probably…it’s taken me a year to really clean out everything in this apartment, to get rid of everything, I mean everything.

Also with my roommate when I would go in there, finally I had exhausted all my outside help, that I would call in here to talk to her…. My cousin came in, and did get her [his roommate] to cry once. And I was like, let them be in there alone. And I came out here and then I would like peak in around the corner. I saw her crying, and I was like, ‘Yes!’ But that didn’t do nothing because I could see in her eyes and I could see in other people’s eyes that…I could tell that she didn’t quite have faith, complete faith. And I could also tell that she had resentment and that she had [need of?] repentance. And so we went through all that. It got really frustrating, though. There was times that I was going in there like a drill sergeant, saying, ‘You will believe in Jesus now!’, you know. That didn’t work. But, we just, we chipped away and there was a particular person, and I don’t want to say who this person is, that she had a problem with. And it was really my fault, because I, through[out] our time here, I would be talking about this person, and not in a good way. You know, this person didn’t have good intentions towards me. It was a very close family member. And so, and that’s another reason that God was yelling at me. It’s because you know, I got her to resent somebody. I brought in these stupid demons, I taught her about New Age, you know. She was starting to believe in it. So, yeah, God was mad at me, and had a good reason to be. I was mad at myself.

So anyway I could tell by…her eyes, I could tell from…everywhere I’d go for the two months—well it lasted even longer than that but—I could tell for awhile people from far distance if they were believers or not. I wasn’t told everything at all. I was only given a little…enough that I could handle, I guess. I mean, it was a lot to handle. I look back at it now and I just laugh because, wow that was a lot to deal with, you know. My family dies, and now my best friend is dying. And I’m trying to cure her and God to save her. I mean God could have did it on His own. But, you know, there was a reason why He did this. And I think it was not just for me and her, it was for other people, too. It was for family members, friends, and hopefully it still continues. That it can continue to help anybody.

So, little did I know that in this two weeks that God was yelling at me that my roommate would lose her mental capability of really being able to repent fully and accept Jesus and  ask Jesus to be her Lord and Saviour. And finally, and I’m trying to think because there was a lot of stuff that was going on at the time. I was really battling, and I was going crazy. I would have to come out into the outside or the kitchen, and I’d be just, I was just torn. And I finally, this was the first time I ever asked Jesus for anything. I said, ‘Jesus, Jesus please give me strength. I need strength.’  And it came over me like a, like a, like a, just over my head and really like, like, like warm water or something over my whole body, it just came upon me this str...this unbelievable strength. I was saying stuff like, I remember I was in her room, and here she is just dying. And I patted her on the leg and said, ‘This is what’s going on here with you. This is OK.’ And people are looking at me, ‘What?’ And I’m laughing and I’m happy and I’m feeling guilt. I can’t even feel bad if I tried. I’m feeling guilt. I’m like, ‘Oh my gosh, stop laughing. Stop being so happy! This is not a time to be happy.’ You know, God wanted her. God wanted her now. And He was going to have her. And I never knew any of this stuff. I never knew that God could want somebody so bad that He’s just going to have her...have that person. And He was going to have her. And so I know I’m missing a lot of stuff here.

So I go into here room one night. And it’s just her TV was on. And there was a lot of stuff that I…I had to throw some things away and she didn’t like that. But Holy Spirit was telling me to do it. And she hated [to lose] that stuff. Before all this happened, you just didn’t go throwing away any of her stuff. You would hear from her, man.

So one night I go in there…. And also like the prayers, I’ve…she would call me in there to prayer and to read the Bible, and when we would pray, it was not even me. Like I can’t pray. I’m not a good pray-er. But these were beautiful prayers. I mean these were just beautiful. And when we’d be done she would go, ‘That was really beautiful.’ And I would just go, [pointing his finger up to God] ‘It’s not me’. So any way, I go in there one night, and it’s dark in there, and she’s laying on her bed, just whatever she’s doing. She’s content. But I can see it in her eys, and I’m looking in her eyes and thinking, ‘There’s something [not right].’ So I cross my arms and I look at her, and she’s not looking at me. And I go, ‘We’re missing something.’ Now I…I…that choice of words right there, that was God. God put that in my mouth because that just happened to be the blessing. And when I said, ‘We’re missing something here,’ she turned over to me, and she looked at me like, ‘How did you know?’ And she starts balling, I mean balling. And this woman I’ve seen her on her deathbed two other times before this. She had [been cold and self-dependent?]...except this once. And [each time] she was supposed to die, but she made it. [Now] she just started crying. She looked up and she said, ‘Jesus please be my Lord and Saviour, and I repent for the sin of abortion.’ She never told a soul about this abortion. She didn’t tell nobody, not even her daughter. I was surprised when we told her daughter and stuff, that her daughter didn’t like get angry, and say, ‘No, that’s a lie.’ I think she asked her [about the abortion?].

It was amazing. That was the most profound thing, even more so than (I could just about cry) more so than when the Holy Spirit came into my heart. I loved her so much, (I don’t want to start crying), and that was the…OK, so she did that. And I got up, and it wasn’t even me that said, ‘You know what? Your Lord and Saviour can raise the dead. And He took your sin of abortion and threw it as far to the east as the, east goes, whatever that is. Sorry [for misquoting that verse].

And then that yelling that was going on, said, ‘Now get out of here!’ Because you’d think that right now is a ‘high five’ moment. This was a big hug moment. I think this was her time to be with the Lord. Because it was like God said, ‘All right, now get out of here.’ Like, We’re done with you. Get! And so I come out here. And I get on my couch. And I lay back. And I can feel what was in me here [his lower abdomen] come right up out, and out right off of my head. And up it goes. And I looked up and I said, ‘So, I guess we’re done, God. I guess we got the job done, right God?’ And it was kind of like a, that when God was in there yelling at me, it was like a...I called it like ‘a beautiful burden.’ And it just released out of me. And it was such a moment because He really did put a burden on me. Even though I loved it. That’s why I called it a ‘beautiful burden.’ That was great, man. And then you know what? She started losing her mental faculties there, and [Jesus saved her] just in time.

And so, there was a lot of, there was some problems going on with the family that was coming in here and stuff (which I really don’t’ want to get into that), and they had a key and stuff, to our place. And they just come and go as they please. I was watching Cheryl for 20 hours, and then they’d come in 4 [p.m.]. I was wore out. Before they even started to do that, I was doing everything for her for a month before that all happened. So I mean I was just wiped out. I don’t even know how I made it. She also had a stint in the hospital. It was tough.

So, she this time hospice had come in. (And I can’t believe I’m going to have to do another one) [another video to finish this testimony. Maybe he’s afraid of boring us. He has nothing to worry about there]. So hospice was in here, and they were great. Gosh, I don’t want to leave anything out [of this testimony], there was so much that was going on here. It was actually exciting. Now that strength that I asked Jesus, I asked Him for that strength, and it was just amazing strength. It finally went away after a week and, and I was all puny again.

But, I carried on, and carried through. My roommate’s last wishes, and she told this probably 3 years prior to her passing, was for me to hold her hand when she passed away. So I wanted to make sure and that she told the family, and everything like that. We also wanted her daughter to be there for that. Her daughter was having some problems. And her daughter actually had to move away. And we all agreed on that that she move. And I think that was a great decision, actually. Because she [his roommate?] had been through a lot, and this was really her only family that she had any interactions with, and stuff. So, it kind of turned out sad, you know, but....

So, a lot is going on, a lot of stuff. I was pretty much stuck here. I couldn’t go anywhere, which is fine with me. So, during the…I’d go to sleep around 10 a.m. and get up around 1 [p.m.]. Well I’m sleeping one day (this is really hard to even go through again) and I’m awakened, and I sit up and they are taking my roommate out of here. And they are bringing her to hospice. That was the last time I seen her conscious. And you know, that was really sad, really sad to see because she had suffered so much. She was suffering so much, and it was horrible. I can’t even imagine what she went through. But, so she went to hospice, and we met with the doctor who’s there and he said, ‘She’s not going to make it through the night.’ I hadn’t even slept. I mean I was a basket case. So I talked to the nurses and stuff, and everybody in the family. And they said [I said], ‘Look, look I’ve got to go at least try to get a half an hour, or something, of sleep. So if…if…they know when she’s going to be passing. They know. They’re professionals, more so than a hospital. So, you call me well in advance when you know she’s going.’

So I get here and just lay my head down, and the phone rings. So, I’m going back over to the hospice. And, yeah, this part it gets kind of crazy here too. So I get to the hospital and it’s her time [to pass]. And, she’s…her eyes are closed and stuff. And I’m trying to talk her into letting go. And she’s trying to hold on, hold on. Her daughter has just left [from Texas?]. This is probably 500 miles away; there’s no way she can make it here in time, you know.. and I’m holding her hand, just talking to her real gentle. There was a chaplain there who came in a day before. And she said, ‘Whoa, I feel the Holy Spirit coming!’ She’s the only person...I was like, ‘Really? Holy Spirit?’ I didn’t know I had the Holy Spirit.

So I held her hand. She passed on. I could definitely feel a weird sensation in the room as she, as she did pass. In fact I know it. It was….it was strange. Somebody wasn’t very happy and I’ll tell you who they weren’t happy with. They weren’t happy with me. And I remember soon as I was done, I went outside and go on the phone and I called my aunt and uncle. And they’re very strong in faith and I told them what happened. And they cut off on the phone. I could hear them, however, but they couldn’t hear me. And I could hear my aunt, see my aunt was on one phone, and then my uncle was on another. They were on landline phones. And my aunt goes, ‘He’s going to get attacked!’ And I call them back and go, ‘Oh, and by the way, I’m not going to get attacked. Tsss.’ The attacks started that night, and they were ruthless. And it was through other people they were sent. And I fought with the family. It was so terrible, it was so bad the next day I went and I got a friend. I went and picked a friend up and he stayed with me for two weeks. It got to a point where he had to take care of me. And he couldn’t believe it. He was, his family was Jehovah’s Witnesses, and he wasn’t much of a believer or anything. Well he was after this. He couldn’t believe what was going on. It got to a point where after a week and a half (and I was smoking cigarettes at the time. Can you believe this?) and I hadn’t had a cigarette maybe 4 hours. And so I’m like, ‘I got to go outside and have a cigarette. I’ve been just battling.’ I go out on the deck and my deck’s on fire, you know. I froze in my exist[ence?]… my friend had to put the fire out.

But, I was talking about how the Holy Spirit warned me. The Holy Spirit really warned me. I mean there was a time when like I went outside once. And like there was a breeze coming. And the breeze was like telling me, you know, ‘Jesus is coming. There’s going to be destruction on earth.’ All this stuff. I mean crazy, crazy stuff. And then It was telling me about some sort of deception that the ‘aliens’ are going to have something to do with antichrist, and all this stuff. I’m not going to get too much into that. There’s a lot of stuff that I didn’t get into [didn’t cover in this YouTube testimony]. It doesn’t need to be. I don’t think it…I don’t know. Maybe another video…

So I did end up quitting drugs. I did quit everything. I finally learned that obedience is key. And for some reason, for a long time there, for almost a year, I had this little problem with Jesus. And it wasn’t Jesus’ fault. You know, I think it was just, I was being attacked a lot. Satan was not happy with what happened with my roommate. He was very not happy. And I was doing stup…like I was like challenging Satan and stuff. I was saying stuff like, ‘How could you be so stupid to think you can overtake the throne of God?’, you know. And then I would just get viciously, like through dreams, you know. I would be fighting against demons. And he really would…how Satan attacks me is through other people. And I struggled with the drugs. You know, the Holy Spirit stuck in there with me. And, you know, I can’t say enough for the Holy Spirit. How the Holy Spirit can stay with you. Over this year He has helped to shape me and trim me. You know, God took everything away from me. Everything. All my friends. Almost all my possessions. I mean I was lucky to even keep my apartment here. I didn’t have a job. You know, I was still battling drugs still. Took everything, though. He even took my…my electricity. I seriously had nothing but a Bible. And I’m just so glad. I’m just so happy. I’m so grateful. You know, I always used to say, ‘I want to die. I want to die now.’ I’m just so glad. I know this isn’t the best place to be. But I’m just so glad and I’m so grateful  to have…so blessed to have this breath that I’m taking right now. And I praise God every day, and I say, ‘Thank You. Thank You Lord, so much. And thank You for this day.’

I’ve talked to all my friends and family about the things that the Holy Spirit has warned me about. It wasn’t popular at all, even with believers in my family, you know. I was telling people in my family, ‘Hey, you know, you should get off that anti-depressant.’ [Their response was,] ‘Well over here in scripture, Trav, it says that….’ [Travis’ answer,] ‘You know you should go to Jesus for help.’ I got off everything [all drugs] pretty much like at once. I got off anti-anxieties, and heroine, and just a mess of drugs. And He really is the way. Jesus is the way with everything. Not just [for] salvation. He can do everything for you. And He will if you seek Him. Obedience. And it really came down to that with me was the obedience because I knew all these people who claimed Jesus, but yet they thought, ‘Oh we can still do drugs.’ And I was, ‘No.’ I remember there was a guy where he was here for like three days (and, you know, I was doing drugs too), but my whole thing to him was we had this debate for three days to where he finally just goes (to imitate his friend Travis drops his head and mumbles), ‘Obedience’. I was like, ‘Yeah. Obedience.’ Obedience is not a work. It is a…it’s a commandment. And if we love Jesus, we will, we will obey Him. No, we’re not perfect. You’ve got to stay repentive [repentant], and work with Him. And He will reveal Himself, you know.

And I’ve had some really neat experiences with Jesus, some really neat ones. We’ve played together. You know, I mean…. It was kind of a vision, dream. I was like half awake, half asleep. And when I was a kid I always loved rolling down this grassy hill. Well, me and Jesus were embraced and we were rolling down this hill. And I was just saying, ‘I love you Jesus. I love you Jesus.’ And my roommate came out and was like, ‘You all right?’ [Travis laughs]. But you know, and I’ve had some really good experiences. And I’m really happy today. I’ve got so much energy, and just joy. And I used to be really reclusive. And there was a woman that lived downstairs. And she had in her window [a sign], ‘Jesus Lord’. I used to come by and mock that thing, ‘Jesus is Lord!!’ And I never talked with her. And after the Holy Spirit came into my heart, my roommate was in the hospital. And I come down and she [the woman downstairs] was coming, she was in a wheelchair. And she was coming by, and she could tell… she said, later on she said, ‘Oh, I could tell the minute I seen your face, your eyes, you know, what had happened.’ And I just loved her. She ended up moving, but…. This has been, like I said earlier, this last 4 years more has happened to me than in my whole 46 years of living. And it’s all because of Jesus. You never know what path you are going to have. People are always arguing and bickering about ‘works’ and against ‘grace’, and all this and all that, and ‘the rapture’. Yeah, I believe in the rapture. But I’m not just going to come out and say, ‘I’m pre-trib or post-trib rapture’. I know Jesus is coming. I know He is. So we should just stay prepared as if He was going to come right now. And I am grateful to be able to, you know, just testify for Jesus. So, yeah. And I am very happy now. And I just plan on getting happier. And I plan on becoming more what God wants me to be. And you know when you really love Jesus and you really, really, really keep seeking and seeking Him, you can’t lose. And things are just going to get better.

You know, times get hard still, and they will. But, just don’t stop, don’t ever stop, no matter what. Don’t let your sins drag you down. Don’t let the devil take you down with that sin. As long as we’re breathing we got Jesus. You have to stay on it, don’t backslide. Don’t slip away from Him. Stay. And, you know, that’s one thing that I’ve learned right there, is I’m not going to beat myself up if I fall. I’m just going to immediately get back up, because not only do I love Jesus, I don’t want to go to hell. Anyway, I hope that this helped somebody. I don’t know. I’m just…like I said, I’m grateful to be able to share and to know Jesus. And a dream that I had here recently was Jesus’ confirming that I know Him. And then I said, ‘Well, You know me too, right?’


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